Well, I've made it to another year.
Another year of being in love.
Another year of fun adventures.
Another year without a baby.
I'm getting more and more okay with not having a baby. Don't get me wrong, it is completely heartbreaking and I still cry regularly because of it. But I think I'm finally getting used to the fact that this is just the beginning in a very long battle.
But this year, I'm not resolving to have a baby. I can't control that. I've done all that I can medically afford to do right now to have a baby and it just haven't happened.
So, this year I resolve to work on me. Get in shape, smile more, laugh a lot, stay up late, sleep in, dance with my husband, go on trips, and just enjoy life.
And if all goes according to plan, this should be the best year yet.
I know what you mean. Infertility is such a rollercoaster. And despite everything, each and every month we still hope that just perhaps, this time, the miracle will happen. I am going for IVF either Jan or Feb, and once that's over, then it's over and we can get on with our lives. I think that all the uncertainty is the biggest problem for me - don't do stuff 'just in case I get preggers' … lol. Ooops, sorry for long comment :-) Have a fantastic 2012
ReplyDeleteI can relate. I love you tons! Its hard and i use to always have my new years res. be get pregnant and after 4 years i realize just cause its a new years res. doens't mean its gonna happen but enjoying the time with hubby for me helped alot with enjoying life again :) your still in my prayers! Happy New Years!
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